It’s a third time today that I am opening that tempting tab in my browser to peek at this object of desire that has caught my fancy.
I find myself staring at this pair of sinfully elegant, unapologetically feminine Parisian pink flats.
Then my eyes hover over the hefty price tag – surely my overstuffed closet doesn’t need a $450 Gucci shoe. But the mind is wandering and I can imagine this pair going perfectly with that still untouched magenta super swingy skirt which I had never been confident enough to pull off.
A meeting reminder pops up on my screen and breaks me of my reverie. “Ah”, I scold myself – “The PG&E meeting is in 15 minutes and you are lusting over a pair of shoes that you don’t need. Wake up Girl!”.
To give some background, I work at BigRock – an investment management firm. And yes – today is just another ordinary day. I have an upcoming meeting with a client and there is this lingering sense of anxiety to bat this well.
“Many eyes are on this deal, and if you nail it – the Sales Director role is yours. Just make sure they get the messages right .. and don’t make it seem too much of a hard –sell .. and hopefully, they won’t dwell too much on the terms in Section #4… ”
A constant drone of to-do lists is hammering at the back of my head.., imagining all the ways this meeting can go wrong. And every time there is a blip in this train of thoughts – I am seeking refuge in these pair of Parisian pink flats.
“You need these shoes to be successful!!” – a chirpy voice screams inside my head. Click .. click ..click. it would be so easy to buy.
“I’m sorry, but..”, another calm voice patiently explains. ” Remember how you had to give away those Coach boots which were in perfect shape because you realized you had two pairs which looked exactly like the same?”
“But well, you know..” – the chirpy voice pops up again – “Don’t be so hard on yourself, you’ve been working so hard and that contract that you won last month. You deserve this!”
“So.. On Page#5, don’t forget to mention that we analyze the attractiveness of an asset not only based on its risk, but also on the return potential the asset may bring to the portfolio” – That one is my BigRock employed thread, urgently entreating to be heard among the other two voices.
“Blah, blah, blah”.. the chirpy voice interrupts again. “Pleated Magenta skirt with a sleeveless white blouse and pink flats with a floppy bow – now that’s a killer outfit!”…
“Nooo… Too many shoes in your closet, remember?!”. The calm voice seems all flustered and is screaming now.
“.. and the long-term performance goal for this portfolio is to achieve at least 80% of the return of the global stock market” – weakly mutters the BigRock thread again.
The calendar invite has popped up. It is time to join the PG&E call now. I take a deep breath and flick these voices away as I begin dialing the number…
“Hello Everyone, this is Anjali from BigRock Investments”, I brightly announce myself on the phone.
Like I said.. it is just another ordinary day today.